Rainy days & Chocolate!!!

Ok so not much to tell you all really so instead I will just ramble on about whatever comes to a possibly empty mind… I’ve had a rather sad, low & slow couple of weeks mainly due to some abismal weather and although we have had some rather lovely sunny weather days in between we’ve also had our fair share of wet ones too… take this week for instance, the rain hammers down right up until 3-4pm, then we have lovely sunshine but by then it’s too late in the day for an exploring hike… now normally I wouldn’t let a little rain stop play but when you have a dog like Toffi rain puts a belting great big “stop” to play… Toffi does not do rain… at all!!!

Pete has gone to London for a trip, leaving Toffi and I here to have a girls holiday… I say holiday but it’s more like watch Netflix, do a little crochet, read or do absolutely nothing else while it rains time!!! Pretty much any hike or adventures I plan for Toffi and myself seems to go out the window right now due to the aforementioned bad weather and cloudy dark Thundery skies.

So frustratingly for all we have been pretty limited to the campsite for walks around the lake, the awkwardly steep dog run field (which I am pretty sure will come into its own for a good hill running or fitness routine), the meadow and the wooded area for our walkies, much to the disgust of the site owners father here who I caught staring at Toffi and I when she stopped and pee’d on her way over to the dog field, it was a hard enough stare to make it a little uncomfortable and make us feel slightly as if we had broken some sort of massive law, although not one to be out done, I did of course stare back… politely of course… Although thinking about it, I may be a little unfair in my instantly judging of his staring at us… as I actually think it was just probably one of those stares where he wasn’t even really looking at us but more through us and much more likely he was just assessing the grass length/condition in the area and pondering when he should get the hired help to start cutting the poxy stuff all over again!!! And here in starts the vicious cycle of my hay fever all over again, my eyes are sometimes so swollen as to be almost sealed shut and I sometimes resemble the result of having done a few rounds with some incredibly talented boxer!!! But to be fair I can’t fault the sites standards the grass is always kept immaculately short…!!!

 

Finally the sun shone and Toffi and I managed to get out and have a good walk, I found a great place to walk just up the big steep hill and not far from here where Toffi got to run across a field full of clover, and then we took a walk down through a woodland area and back down into the village… it was so good to get out and about and Toffi actually met some new doggie friends while I chatted to other dog walkers, who it would seem were just as frustrated by the weather as Toffi and I had been… We arrived home shortly before the Thunder Storms and watched as the skies darkened and the black angry looking clouds came in!!!

Today is a pretty sad day for me, 11th June, for it should have been my younger brother Danny’s 40th birthday… Danny, unexpectedly & suddenly sadly passed away 13 yrs ago of an overdose when he was just 27 years old… I don’t wish to go into details but it was such a wasted life of someone that always had such a sparkle to them…

So yeah as you can imagine it’s been rather a tough week all around, I found myself questioning life, contemplating things, going over and over things again and again… All this thinking made me rather down, I don’t mind telling you I am a person who rarely sheds a tear, but boy there have been tears this week, tears that were replaced with yet more tears… yeah a bit of a sad week!!! It’s true what they say it is the loved ones left behind that hurt the most!!!

And it got me thinking about when people get into those desperate dark sinister places and such situations for various reasons people don’t always ask for help…

Life is too short to not reach out and this was again made clear in the last couple of weeks after an old work colleague of ours unexpectedly passed away, Lynne was laid to rest just a few days ago, my condolences and thoughts are also with her family at this very, very sad time…

On a brighter note to end this blog post I decided to buy my second tree and have dedicated it to the memory of my brother Danny… and to commemorate Dan’s life… I think he would have liked that too!!! Here’s some of my favourite pictures of Danny…

On a brighter note the local supermarket was selling massive 360g weighted bars of chocolate… one of which just happened to accidentally fall into my shopping basket this week and has been an amazing help making those sad rainy days seem so much better with a good old cup of English Tea…. So that’s been like “really” helpful to my weight loss diet…

I hope you have all had a much better week and have a much brighter week ahead…

I now have only 42 trees left to have planted to achieve a tree planted for every year of my life you never know I may make a “go fund me” page to help out otherwise even if I am able to buy 1 tree a month it may take me 3 yrs to achieve…

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Take good care of yourselves until next time,

Donna x